My form of Therapy

Also.. I've been having a few bad days for all sorts of reasons.. and so I am going to go downtown this evening for a little bit of therapeutic shopping.. just the thing I need to pick myself up!

My synapes are constantly firing!

I can't stand how creaky my apartment is. All day and all night long, I hear the people on the 3rd floor walking around. They sound like fucking elephants! Stooping around, oh my goodness.. I know when they go to bed, I know when they wake up (6:30 am).. which is really no fun when I want to sleep in. Because my nervous system is constantly registering the noises! It is really irritating to me to keep having to hear these people. The other day, it sounded like they were rubbing some rubber material all over the floors.. driving me crazy And then, even worse than the people upstairs is my bathroom. Lately, over the last few weeks my bathroom is constantly making noises. Little creaks, constantly! And for some reason my ANS keeps wanting to register the noise, trying to make my brain and body react to it.. but there's nothing to react to, there is nothing that I can do about this awful annoying noise! Except spend as little time as possible in the bathroom.. and to try and calm my ANS down.

Chilled Sake

I recently have become a sushi lover.. and I mean a full blown out convert. Never really liked it before, although I have to admit I never gave sushi a real try. Just the idea of raw fish kind of grossed me out... and it didn't really look like it would be enough food.. but in the last month or so, oh baby! I think what really got me was the philadelphia sushi. The creamcheese, cucumber combo was such a perfect mix of tastes.. it just danced in my mouth! And there are so many different types to try out there!! All I want nowadays is sushi.. I swear, I've gone out to like 3 japanese places ever since. Talk about a life changing experience! This last weekend, I went to Sushi Rock, and I ordered sake. At first I was extremely skeptical because the menu had only one type of warm sake, and like fifteen chilled sake, and I always thought that sake came warm, always.. so I was a bit skeptical about the authenticity of it all. But I asked the waiter his opinion and he suggested plum chilled sake.. oh my goodness. heaven in my mouth. swear to god.. all I wanted was to savor that drink all meal long!!! I only ordered one glass, but I sure made that bad boy last the whole time! Totally awesomely amazing.. I highly recommend it to anyone that wants to try any type of chilled sake. Unfortunately, it made me sleepy for the rest of the day, but consequences! You can't avoid them!

That was seriously the only highlight after my week of hell... aka midterms. which sucked ass.. med school is HARD! But sushi is good! ;)

My worst nightmare has come true....

I am so sad today. I just realized today that I am developing teeth sensitivity on the right side (anatomical left side) of my mouth!! Horrible. I already was sensitive on the left side of my mouth, and now this shit. It was so bad that I couldn't eat hot food last night, this morning I couldn't even drink lukewarm tap water. I actually have to start drinking hot water now! Damn it.. on top of that, when I go to brush my teeth, it irritates me because the toothpaste is cool against my gums. This is just great.. I already can't drink water with ice in it because of my sensitive mouth.. what am I going to do now at restaurants? Order boiling water.. damn.???

motivation?

I am sitting at my computer, around 11 at night.. after wasting two hours watching both Sex and the City and Law and Order SVU (best show on earth)... and then another hour wasted by being mad at myself for wasting time.. all the while not studying for midterms. But now I am realizing that I don't really care all that much.. I know tomorrow morning I will be pissed at myself for doing this, but for now I don't care too much.. I was a little pissed though. Law and Order was kind of shitty tonight.. all dramatic and emotional. Not really much happened in terms of an interesting case.. just Stabler going cookoo again.. this time he almost beat the shit out of a father.. not like last week's episode. That was one awesome episode. Kept me gripping the edge of my seat. And sex and the city is always great. And surprising thought provoking. I initially dismissed the show as a load of crap. But it really is pretty deep.. either way, both shows can't tell me a damn thing about the splanic nerve.. or where the fucking coronary sinus is located within the right atrium.. let alone unlock the mysteries that the nervous system anatomy, all that pre and post ganglionic shit, and white/gray matter, is.. nope, no tv show can tell me that... but entertain me, that's a guarantee..

Just to Feel Like I am Learning!

I had a revelation today.. while I was at the gym (working out after 5 hours of anatomy lab!) Anyways, I realized that I was just like Edward Norton's character in Fight Club. At the beginning of the movie where he and that other suicidal guy realize that they are junkies for these groups that deal with death, cancer, addiction, etc.. they NEED to do those things and experience other people's intense emotions just to feel alive. How incredible. And yet, I realized that similar thought process today while I was in my anatomy tutoring group. I NEED to be in the tutoring groups, even attending those that I don't even sign up for... just to feel like I am studying and learning something! I am a junkie for medical school tutoring groups. Histology, Anatomy, Physiology.. whatever.. give it to me, satisfy my urges!!! Oh my.. obvious example of what formaldhyde can do to the brain after prolonged exposure.... going to bed hopefully soon..

CHC!

Wow! I volunteered today to translate spanish at a local clinic that the medical school students work at. And oh my god!! The things that the medical school students knew! The lady would say that her stomach hurts, and they would take that to mean gastritis.. or pancreatis.. or all these other ungodly things that I don't know how to spell! On top of that, they would know what the acronims (sp?) of meds actually meant.. and they would guess all of the underlying causes for taking those meds!!! And the way they could spit out SOAP notes.. and lets not even talk about the way that they knew how to do physical examinations!! Holy shit.. I was amazed to see how they would take the same things that I was translating to them and spit out a diagnosis!!! On top of that, the M3 student working with us has got to be the smartest guy ever.. and I mean ever! But it was super super cool to think that one day, after all this awful studying I will be like that.. what a great motivator! But the best part was that I didn't choke under pressure!! I was able to translate majority of what was being said! Go me!!! WHoooo hooo! Now back to studying!